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Embarrassment

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  We all have come across this particular situation when we cursed ourselves and regretted for doing certain things that might seem funnier to the spectators. I used to face this nose cut or bulb moments but my embarrassment moments continued with other people embarrassing me in front of the crowd which also created an inferiority complex within myself. It happened when I was 10 years old, when I had a good interest in jewels and told my parents to get me jewels to wear but then I didn't realize that I asked my parents who had never worn jewels in their past and present life and won't be wearing it in the future too. At first, they thought that I was joking around which isn't new for me getting ignored as you were just a toy in the house but I was serious at that time the reason is common I got influenced by my friends in school events. I started to nag at my parents who always have a brilliant idea to avoid this topic since they don't either oppose getting jewels or su

Crush

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  Let's be honest today, everyone had this one crush who you couldn't forget because they might have played a crucial role in your teenage. Crush is quite a good thing because here you won't express your feelings in some cases just stealing glances at them from time to time. After all, I don't express my feelings towards him. I feel like it's so usual for everyone to have a crush since they won't take it to heart. But if I have a crush on someone I somehow will take it to my heart without my knowing which will hurt later when I come to know more about them, I had a crush (not so sure) on this guy ( I don't wanna be specific ) whenever I see him I end up being blushing for next 30s or until someone notices me then I'll try to control. I don't know when I started to have a crush on him even though I have been seeing him for about seventeen years and I didn't even have enough courage to hold eye contact with him. Although I Stared at him it was when

Hair care

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  Everyone hates hairfall whether it's a kid or an old person because we know hair is a crucial component of our physical beauty but do we realize it's because of us? Yeah...I used to object to this statement at first but after going through my daily schedule I started to realize the things that I have been doing to my poor hair. It all started when I was in 10th grade when every one of us would take pressure on studying I did the same too, I stayed up late at night to finish off my assignments and homework which resulted in severe hair fall to the point when I started to doubt on my health thinking that I might have something serious health issues and it continued for next 4 years, in between I also realized that not all the hair can tolerate the harsh atmosphere, it's that the pollution in which we have been travelling daily which is also a factor to affect our hair if the hair is either curly or damaged. So we can protect our hair from this harsh atmosphere by tying a sh

Voice

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  We might seen people who used to be so quiet everywhere and that would be their nature or sometimes their past traumas might change them and their viewpoint towards society. We can't judge someone's character just because they are quiet it doesn't mean they're showing off their attitude and we should not judge someone by their facial expressions or by social interaction because everyone is unique on their own and we don't know about everyone's past lives. But quiet people might always have a thought or a discussion with themselves where they will question them and try to come up with an answer along with a lot of arguments within themselves. And they suppress everything within them every pressure, every thought and idea within them it's not because they don't wanna share their thoughts with anyone but because they will share them with the ones who value their words the most if they get to know that the current situation or the people there aren't r

Dad as a teacher

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  My parents used to teach me certain things with a calm face at first but my poor brain tested their patience which ended up getting a nice smack in my head from my parents. It mostly happened when my dad taught me to ride a scooter It happened when I was 11 years old, I'm not even near my dad's shoulder now then just imagine how could my leg reach to the ground even now it won't, but my father wants me to learn riding a scooter to which I couldn't even deny to them. At the initial stage of my learning, Dad would sit behind me and hold the handlebar with his both hands and later he started to support me only with his left hand when I lost balance and got a good shot either in my head or hand then somehow get balance and try to lead a good ride without getting any special gifts which make my hand red as a tomato. After years of getting a lot of criticism from my dad whenever he gives chance to ride a bike, it does make sense because I'll make a lot of mistakes. Till

The untold dream of many girls

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  Night outs, I know it's a dream of many girls they want to go out at night either alone or with friends once in their lifetime which will be denied by their strict Asian parents. Even though if they allow their children to go the next thing that comes into their mind is society, like what others will think about them if they let their daughter go out at late night the next valid reason would be safety although there will crowded places at night in the cities then what about the places apart from the city. I hope that most of the parents would allow their girls to go out at night if the crime rate were reduced to NIL. As we listen to most of the crime in the news every day as parents they want to protect their children from getting themselves into danger. As I asked my sister about this she said that most of the parents won't allow their kids even if the crime rates are reduced maybe some households have strict principles to follow. And many girls won't agree with the stat

Biggest inspiration

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  Everyone has a celebrity inspiration from our childhood for whom we might go crazy and love to do everything like them we adopt their body language, their gestures...we love everything about them and even dream of being like them in the future, I got my inspirational person when I was an early teenager, I guess that was the right time because that's when I felt so down about myself and even decided to give up on my passion thinking that's not my cup of tea, but God's plan always find its way to us even though we ran away from them. I came across this song 'What a beautiful name it is' by Hillsong Worship written and sung by Brooke Ligertwood some of you might heard this song, Hillsong worship is an Australian musical band consisting of 23 members. Brooke Ligertwood was a New Zealand singer and songwriter she's one of the prominent Christian worship leaders of this century, when I listened to her songs I started to get my spirit for music back and I started to

Love for Navy blue

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  I don't know when I started to love Navy blue but after a certain point I started to go crazy for navy blue I fell in love with it. I somehow get the dresses in navy blue whether it's a coincidence or not but my mom isn't happy with the navy blue dresses that I chose since my wardrobe is almost filled with navy blue. My eyes automatically go to anything that is covered with Navy blue in a crowd, I feel like I'm getting obsessed with navy blue a lot these days. Navy blue, Is a rare colour in nature and it looks classy and also makes our minds Calm we might think that only light colours like baby pink, white, green, purple, and blue can Calm people and make the atmosphere peaceful but navy blue is also a transmitter of calmness to our heart and brain. I've noticed that dark colours like navy blue, black, and teal make people look attractive, Maybe that's why everyone prefers to wear something dark on an important occasion. Navy blue is an elegant colour that giv

Traffic light

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  We have seen the traffic lights and we know what it indicates. While having a talk with my mom this evening about the blog, she told me about 3 different types of people in this world which would be compared to the traffic lights. I'm gonna share here the interesting facts that my mom told me. Starting from the top the GREEN light indicates the people who rush things just like the people who fly away with their vehicle as soon as they see the green light, I hate when people rush up things because it stresses the people who are around them, My dad used to hasten me up in the morning while coming to college which stresses me, in the hurriedness I'll forget my watch, water bottle, lunch or something which might be helpful for that day, that stress would spoil our mood for the whole day. The YELLOW light indicates the people who do things in a particular organized order which would reduce the level of failure in their life, Even though if they make any mistake, they have the pati

DAD

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  I'm super excited to announce that it's my 50th blog so today I wanna talk about a person who inspired me, supported me, and encouraged me in every aspect of life from my childhood that is MY DAD who's in his 50s. He was the one in our house who encouraged me to try everything by saying whether we do it perfectly or not but keeping up our confidence and doing it is the biggest achievement that you could ever get. I used to share a certain incident with my dad which might panic my mom if she got to know about it like getting caught by traffic police, getting scolded by random people on the road while riding a bike, travelling to places all by myself...and many more he will be like, Okay don't worry, try to be more careful from next time. he wants me tackle all the situation by myself since it'll help me to get stronger in future, But don't think he'll be a cool dad definitely no he might convince since that would be a first time but if I repeat the same thi

Comparsion

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 Whether it is kids or adults no one likes to get compared with others we might agree if someone points out our mistake and we'll try not to repeat it again but if we get compared by others we might think of ourselves as low or else we get insecurities, It is common among teenagers as they are being sensitive as growing up in an Asian household we all have witness comparing us with the neighbourhood kids or with our cousin or with our siblings, I feel like the comparison which parents make about their kids doesn't make them a right person instead it may create a conflict between their friends and family. We never liked our parents comparing us with others right? I believe that each and everyone has their kind of stuff to handle and not everyone has the same lifestyle as us and everyone's life differs from one another so comparing others with us never finds a solution to a problem. A kid growing up having a self disesteem of themselves which is mostly created by their parent

Cleaning day

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 As a family of four where the parents and the children are busy on the weekdays with their studies and work who will get free time at their weekends sometimes we have to consider Saturdays as weekdays if the kids are in the higher grades or the parents who work under a pressurized organization so they only get Sunday as a day to relax themselves Do you think it'll be a relaxing day in our house🤔? No, because that could change as a cleaning day for us since we won't get enough time to clean around on the weekdays as we will be there to create a mess on the weekdays so we have to clean up the mess that we created. As the youngest of the house, I'll get the privilege of getting half of the work done by myself. Start with arranging things which is scattered around in the living room and the bedrooms which is followed by sweeping the floor by which I already lost most of my energy after that I have to continue mopping the floor with my hands getting soaked in floor cleaner aft

Jecia

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  My backpack plays a crucial role in my everyday life as I carry it with me wherever I go, if I go to the grocery store you can find me with my backpack, while riding my bike, even to ration shop, if I go somewhere to get my work done, to music class...almost everywhere. It's like a best friend to me who knows both the best and worst parts of my life as it was with me almost every time. It knows when I smile and when I cry it is there to comfort me. Jecia was so comfortable for me while carrying it I felt so secure as most of the time I used to go alone everywhere and at night when I came back home alone from my extracurricular I thought to smack someone with Jecia if they try to do something against me, Now I realize it's easy to imagine but at that moment I could get freeze by my fear and my jecia knows about it. The things that my parents didn't know but my bag knew like getting caught by a policeman, getting hurt by a stranger and being a crying mess, people would star

The ill-fated experience

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  We always used to go somewhere with relatives when they came to our home who visit us once in a while. That's what we did today, as relatives planned to go somewhere where we could spend some quality time so we all started our journey in the morning after making lunch as we planned to have food at home, since I and my sister got into this plan in the morning it took time for us to get ready so we send them off at first then we got ready and started our ride too. I usually get nervous while riding a scooter since people would come from all the possible way with high speed so I always try to stick to the left side of the road with average speed which I could balance with a sudden break. Before starting our ride I prayed that my fear should not take control over me if I get nervous then my mind could get blank. After an hour we joined them while having a good drive and exploring places, we planned to go back home since that was already noon as they also had a bus to catch that eveni

A Unique Day

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 As the day starts with the sweet voice from my dad to wake me up I know it seems to be weird, yup My parents used to be overly sweet and lovely if they wanted us to get their work done I'm sure it goes the same with everyone, I'm not saying they never been sweet to me but we can identify it from the sweetest tone they use. I woke up and got myself ready for college but unfortunately, I missed my chance to go with Dad so I had to walk to the bus stand since it was already 9am The chances of getting the bus without a crowd are less after several minutes got a bus where I could stand and breathe properly after an hour of journey among sudden breaks when someone could get in middle of road, you guys know about roads and the people who drive there, amidst of traffic, hearing tons of fights within 10 stoppings, finally reached my destination. Walked for 10 minutes to reach college when I got into the college the thing that I noticed was the population as the semester exams were arou

Happiness or Joy

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  Happiness comes from various means and it depends on our fulfilment towards the things we have and what we get. My mom said that If we don't have any anxiety or depression or any other pressure we will lead a life of happiness, when I ask her what makes us happy she said that If we get everything according to our desire then we'll be happy but I'm not sure if it last long because humans desire and needs changes time to time then how can we be sure about the happiness that we hold on. Once my professor asked the difference between joy and happiness and that's when I realised those two are different from each other, he explained that happiness comes from things that we see or something that we get which doesn't last long but joy is something that comes from bottom of our heart even if we don't have anything the peace and the joy that arose from our heart would be permanent. As we think about happiness and joy we might realise that the smile we mostly put on is f

Out of our comfort zone

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  <span;>Growing up surrounded by people who could protect you and be there for you whenever you need them life won't be the same forever right? there will be a point when we have to come out of that bubble and stand up for ourselves when we struggle a lot if we have grown in a complete comfort zone for a long period. In my life, still I completely haven't got out of my comfort zone but I somehow trained myself to be strong because nothing goes according to our plan, I trained myself by going everywhere all by myself so that we could experience new atmospheres and different kinds of people which could teach us to tackle certain situations which we haven't came across till then, As I mentioned in my earlier blogs after going to places alone I came to know certain necessary information which I had to know, some could think we can't able to know the face of world while living with parents, I feel like it depends on their opinion towards their parents because My paren

Focus

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  Focusing on the same thing for more than 10 minutes isn't easy task, despite of disturbance we will be shift into our dream world within minutes after starting a work. If we have the curiosity or a motivation to stay connected to the work it might endure for some hours but if we are forced or being ran out option then we can't stay focused more than 10minutes, once my professor said that we can't keep ourselves focused on something more than 2 mins even if we are watching a movies our focus would move somewhere else related to that movie scence. Does it affect our academics? I personally believe that the way we show our interest in the extracurriculam will be the same in our academic excelling in both doesn't matter before that the amount of interest and effort we put on to make it happen. My school principal used to advice us to be a part of any one sports team, As a player they would be more focused than anyone, they do have a strong memory power than others as we w

Break

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  Getting a small break will let us refresh and relax sometimes it makes us more creative than usual because having a break and diverting our focus on something else will always make us more creative even when we are struggling amid something like being Stuck between decisions to make but after a fine break in which we can able to figure out things which we couldn't do before, Taking a break in a middle of exhausted journey is totally fine our both mental and physical health wants it. A month before I desperately needed a break from my exhaustive daily routine it's because I used to leave my home by 7:30 every morning and come back drained after 8 pm which included bus travel to certain places at the same time I couldn't back off from the works that I was doing so I had to go on with it, I went to my native for a week in between those days in which I relaxed as much as I can and came back with a new positive spirit and energy which also helps me to be more active than befor

Away from them

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  Everyone has this experience of being apart from their parents for a while as a kid neither in our native nor with our relatives, I have been in this situation even being a teenager, my parents usually let me and my sister to spend our vacation with our cousin as they too have vacation. When I was a kid I used to get the memory of my parents at night by which everyone's sleep would be spoiled by me. But then in the daytime, I would indulge myself in playing with my cousins. It might be an experience which everyone could go through as these are part of our childhood days. It was a pleasant time when every cousin would gather at one place and have fun for at least one whole week. My parents usually let us spend vacations with our relatives because my father would go to work which is usual but then my mother might have work during May month which is unusual. And those were times when we didn't have phones with us and we weren't able to contact our parents on our own unless t

Fruits

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  Fruits are something that no one can resist, from kids to old age people everyone loves fruits maybe because of their flavour, sweetness and for their benefits towards our health, I love having fruits for my daily meals, (Note: not in my meal but as a meal) The reason I love fruits is that because of its sweetness in every fruit that unique taste in every fruit never let us feel the satiation. Kids might dislike vegetables but most of the kids never resist fruits because we are somehow fond of fruits. I always wonder when I dislike the vegetables even if my parents try to make it tasty than usual but then why do I love fruits the most is it because of flavour or of it's appetizing colour or else of it's health benefits I don't know but still if you give me fruits for all the 3 meals in a day I would happily accept it. I'm sure about it's health benefits as I have experienced it, fruits has the capacity to light up our face as it contains vitamins which always keep

Stingy

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  Is being stingy good or not? People teased me for being stingy, But I didn't find anything odd in it, Although I used to be frugal with my family with others I tried to give away what I got. I believe that every family should have at least one stingy member because practically this is how it works, let's think of a family of 4 every member in the family everyone loves to spend money as much as they have except one who wants to or who will save money by keeping their nessacities aside the money which they saved until then will definitely help their family at the end of the month, or for some, it would be helpful even in the mid of a month. At the same time, they should also know about securely multiplying their savings, as we live in a century where we have to save money for our generation from now on. Keeping our savings within us won't help us or our family investing it profitably will always be a support somehow. We shouldn't easily tease someone who is being frugal

Remote

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 A remote which controls our emotions, Maybe it could be a mobile phone probably, because I feel like even from being small kid they get used to living with phones or other electronic gadgets which may create the biggest impact on them while being children, Even their emotions also controlled by availability of electronic gadgets to them. A kid whom I have known for a long time used to watch Cocomelon while having breakfast, lunch and dinner without watching it we wouldn't be able to feed him even after he started going to school he always wanted to watch Cocomelon during dinner and at weekends, Their parents wanted his son to have a something for his strength so they let him do whatever he gets happy in. They even put on coco melon if they wanted him to be quiet, I believe that kids growing up in these decades resist their own emotions and feeling even while growing up. They could be happy if they get their screen time and they would be downhearted if got restricted from electroni

ENT

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  Have you guys ever experienced being in front of an ENT who was curious about what's wrong with your Nose ear or throat, I used to have a small ear in which a cotton swab wouldn't help to clean it out. I know that feels disgusting but I want to share my 1st time experience with that doctor. Even if I use a cotton swab to clean my ears it won't remove the dirt from the inside and it is also a painful procedure for me when my mom drags me and makes me sit to clean it, Note: I was a small kid back then. After growing up a little but still, the size of my ear remained the same after a certain Period my ears started being painful for me even if I didn't use any buds and then my hearing got weaken than usual and sometimes the pain from the inner part of the ear might appear out of nowhere. So I was suggested to have a consultation with an ENT, My parents took me to a clinic where I got anxious after seeing the equipment. They got into the room I was told to lie down and the

Life of drivers

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  From kindergarten to 12th grade I used to go to school with my dad who sat at the back of the bike in between my dad and my sister always clutching onto my dad's shirt sometimes sleeping and putting my head on his shoulder without caring about anything believing that my dad won't let me fall down, So it was a time when my dad would drop and pick me up from school, as it went for another 14 years from kindergarten but after getting into 7th grade they started to practice me to use public transport in times when my dad couldn't make it to pick up me from school. years went by, It became the crucial months of my life, the last 3 months of the school years when my dad met with an accident and had a fracture in his left shoulder by God's grace doctors told us that surgery isn't necessary so he had to take rest from 3 - 6 months. So they arranged an auto for me in the morning and I had to take public transport in the evening either by bus or auto. Life of the drivers is

Is it weird or unique?

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 I used to go to most places all by myself to get my work done, and I felt so comfortable going everywhere all alone, Today afternoon, As soon as I got off the bus in Tirusulam I didn't know which way I have to go to reach the place I was assigned to go, I was wandering around a same building for about 3 times within 20 minutes. Finally got into the place I had to be in. This made me realize that going alone in certain ways will always teach us something which will make us aware of it in the future, But my parents used to be like 'Don't go alone anywhere whether it's day or night and unless we tell you to go there all by yourself'. And I don't understand the logic they use here. However, the thing that I wanna share with y'all isn't this but How I will be in public places and the insecurities I have there. I always carry a backpack with me by which I feel secure I don't know why but I feel safe. sometimes I used to wear my bag front which is quite di

Is it hot to live in Chennai ?

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  I thought to make today's blog a thought-provoking topic but when I was discussing it with my family, My sister suggested I take on the current challenges that were faced by our Tamil Nadu people, especially in Chennai, I don't know about other districts and states, But the weather in Chennai is getting worst day by day, I really thank god for making me reach home without passing out anywhere while returning home from college, Yesterday while walking from bus stop to home, I couldn't even take a step forward I don't know if I was who is weak or is it because of the heat which evaporates my energy, After coming home I couldn't able to stand on my feet by which I couldn't able to have my lunch on time since the tiredness took over me, And I should've listened to my mom when she said to carry my lunch and instruct me to have it before coming home, Maybe it might have given me little more strength than usual. Nowadays we are literally showering three times a d

The empty corridor and me

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  As my Professor finished her class earlier and now I'm currently sitting in one of the stone benches with an empty corridor in front of me which evokes me to write today's blog, So, Today's blog will be the thoughts that I got while sitting there all by myself, there weren't many people so it was quite good, I used to realize the changes that happened in me and to my surroundings in the recent times by having an alone time and thinking deeply. I believe sitting down, taking a deep breath to Calm ourselves and clearing our mind will help us to go through a brighter path, Not only that but also I used to zone out on something like nature which was in front of me, Likewise while I was sitting here, I questioned myself, why no one is talking about corridors, I hope that slippery corridors will always bring us back to our childhood, we even used to spend most of our school punishment in corridors, like doing sit-ups, standing there for an hour, kneeling down and so on.....

Literature within us

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  My journey as a literature student started just a minute before choosing the course in the application form for college, I Never thought that I would sit in the college hearing the lecture about various poets, their marvellous works and the countries in which they all lived in, But somehow I was destined to be there. I entered the college with no idea what I was doing there, I was nervous about almost everything. The classes started regularly without any changes as I studied the syllabus only for my marks, without any intake of knowledge about what I was studying, But deep inside I was scared about my future since I didn't have any stable dream or goal to achieve, and the pressure would increase when you realize that you and your family future depends on what you do now, Thinking about everything I started to force myself towards literature by reading books, trying to keep up with the class. But after a few months, I realized that literature isn't something that should be exp