Not so sure

 

Is socializing a significant factor in today's world? Or do we have to fake it to mingle with everyone and feel like not being left out by others? Socializing is a natural character of humans which can be different for people, I don't feel comfortable talking to someone on our first meeting but then if we get to know each other you won't find me keeping my mouth shut for more than a minute. I always had this doubt within myself Do I get anxious because of the crowd or of unknown people? And do I have to consider myself an introvert or a person with social anxiety? My sister said that these two differ from each other a lot. Because my heart beat rises if I had to speak in front of people or to be more specific I'd be nervous if everyone's attention turned towards me. But I love to go everywhere to get any work done all by myself but with a scarf covering my face, Nowadays I'm getting practice talking to shopkeepers to get things. Despite my work to get done outside, I love to stay home have my alone time, do house chores or do something that I love the most like singing. If I'm getting comfortable with my friends and with my parents then why am I not having good interaction with relatives with whom I grew up and spent half of my childhood, is it because I'm introverted or else is there anything that is stopping me from talking to them comfortably? I hope most of them might get nervous while talking in a crowd so I feel that if we continue to speak in crowded places we might get used to it. I'm not sure about myself am I an introvert or a person with anxiety or self distrust? Let me know if you can figure out my character.